CatDemons4 @ CatDemons4 @lemmings.world Posts 6Comments 62Joined 7 days ago
Friends 1 and 2 are usually kind of quiet. People spend time with Friend 1 because she’s a gamer who just emulates my behavior and “worships” me. Friend 2 is quiet and doesn’t seem to have many friends besides us. She seems usually sweet, though.
It just makes me so mad, like I said, I can’t control it too well. And that’s not so true, I was good at basketball AND volleyball on the first try.
I think being depressed makes me anti social.
I do like women. Women are beautiful.
I, in fact, tried dating one at 16, but I was also dating this dude and trying to break up. She didn’t know I was dating him, though (she never even asked) and caught me with him. She was very upset, so I told my homophobic asshole friend to go F herself for telling her I have a boyfriend :(
So yeah, my big-mouthed friend ruined that for me, sadly. I told her to never speak to me again and she couldn’t sit with me for the rest of sophomore year, but since I’m quite sweet, I forgave her. i know she was devoted to me.
But I find women pretty…? Sure, I can’t name any female crushes, but that doesn’t make me less bi/pan. Sexuality is a spectrum.
Yes, I LOVE men, and women don’t give me the spark, but I love the idea of finally being able to say “I love my girlfriend!”. Plus, a lot of women are very soft and playful, and as a woman, I think I could date and understand most women.
I just haven’t found the right woman because my type is athletic and extroverted. Shy people are annoying, TBH. And they HAVE to like men. Part of dating women means I have to relate to them, and I can’t relate to a lesbian woman.
I don’t know if I’m any of these, to be honest. I just have low empathy and high standards.
To be honest, not really, that’s why I ask these sorts of things and don’t know how to fix it. I can’t understand tone or nuance, I don’t feel guilty about things (my sense of right or wrong is only determined by competence and what benefits me, and also what people tell me is wrong.)
I can imagine it slightly, but I have trouble caring that it hurts them. (I know it’s wrong but I don’t feel bad)
I got kicked off a team, but I knew my behavior had a bad impact because someone told me it did. I only knew bullying was wrong when it happened to me. If it gets me more friends, it’s not wrong. If it makes people hate me, it is wrong, but it’s also on them because I don’t deserve this type of treatment.
But they DESERVE ITTTT 😣
As a sports fan, I hate when people are bad at things. Why even try if you suck, honestly?
No therapist anymore, diagnosed ADHD as a child but I may have autism as well (not diagnosed yet).
Depression at 17.
No, I’m being serious. I don’t get why because I have these two friends who are willing to talk about how much they hate hanging out with people and how useless other people are. Besides, as much as I’ve tried to work on it, I’m still angry, so my friends should love me for that like I love them. I also don’t have much empathy and don’t really understand nuances/what affects people.
Thank you. I’ll try to get a therapist and work on it.
Sadly, only two people want to still hang out with me and the rest are A holes. They and I like to talk about how much we hate being around people (it’s EXHAUSTINGGG) and frankly, how useless everyone is. They can lend an ear and agree with me on how it’s basically us against the world, so why can’t my other friends be as decent? It’s what I don’t get :(
Why do people assume I’m narcissistic? I’m just autistic/ADHD and depressed :(
Cool, good at sports, many friends, likable.
Many men (and women) have been attracted to me. (Never found a decent woman my type, mainly because the woman who liked me was introverted, awkward, and not athletic. She was gay as hell and therefore I couldn’t discuss men with her. My type is athletic and extroverted, and mostly men.)
Won’t being a narcissist ruin my image though?
I view people as more tools than anything, and I’m working on being nicer. I say this with 100% honesty, not because I’m being mean. I still feel like I deserve friends, though. This one girl joins right in with me because I do, even though she’s nice when I’m not with her. Am I perhaps a bad influence on her?
I know it’s jerky, as people say it is, but I don’t really feel that bad (IDK why). I can’t help it, it just slips out. When I see someone being useless, I call them out for it. I will always be better than my friends, and I can’t help but get impatient with them, sadly. It’s my nature and the way I was raised. (My parents think they’re better than most people too, especially my Mother).
I’ll try to join a more advanced team, thanks!
I remember one time someone stole the ball from my friend so I called my friend helpless and useless. No one really helped my teammate with the ball and it was easy for people to steal from each other, especially when no one was trying to get the ball back. But I certainly wasn’t going to help stupid people.
They say it’s because I’m usually not open (I tend to hide behind the other players and not be open but it still pisses me off). They also say I’m a bad sport for calling them useless pieces of crap all the time, and I even got kicked off the team for a while because I told the truth?
Being honest, I will always think other people are terrible, and it makes me mad, but there’s nothing I can do. I guess I’ll just stay that way.