i think my upbringing is messing me up atm.

Old man was/is a sub specialist looking after acute disease / end of life stuff. Emotion is completely out the window when it comes to care (shit needs to get done with a clear mind). I was on the phone from about 13yo speaking to these patients when he wasn't home (which was a lot) and all I could do was listen to that fear. They just wanted someone to hear them (emotionally). Used to go on rounds with him and he has a very good bed side manner, but once out of the room back into get shit done mode.

Seeing mum in her chair just staring at the ground depressed is heartbreaking. Asking me to read texts from buds is heartbreaking. Her telling me the old man hasn't said a nice word since (he's in doc mode) is rough. I'm sort of caught between being someone she can speak to with emotion, but then I have to switch my own on and off depending on what needs to happen. When you leave the room it's a tidal wave of the realisation of a new reality for her.

All my discussions with the old man are clinical (and it needs to be), but I can see a few cracks in his demeanour which is.. unusual and.. heartbreaking (and telling).

I don't really have hope that her vision will recover beyond where it is now. But flipping emotion on and off like this is something I've never done.

Hope you're feeling better. jaegermeister can be a slippery slope at times.

ooh good save. After a few water events over the last few years water scares the shit out of me now. You did good.

I just had a hot cross bun.

Bathtub pizza oven! Now that is not something I've seen before.

9/20 not gonna be rocket dentist anytime soon.

if you head to studley park boathouse the geese will try you.

Cicadas are rude.

Ted might go for the behind but he's a misunderstood audiophile at heart.

Just don't grab the corrola.

I'm going to remove all doubt and just use the ground myself.

Thavk you

Yep that's the b'day hangover right there :)

happy b'day :)

Jeez. Nothing like a spontaneous glass table explosion to start your saturday :(

Watch would be ideal but she won't wear it. But I think you're right I should include the > 8pm

Interestingly the paper / handwritten seems to be more effective than a printed spreadsheet. I think that might be because we sat there together when I was drawing it up, was an activity to get her involved and get her thinking about time intervals for the various drops in the hope she remembers.

Here's the schedule for mum's eye things. Was a bit drunk with the rhs I will redo that.

I've tried phone alarms / apps but this way seems to have a higher success rate. She's also supposed to be dropping 2 times after 8pm but she likes her baileys so that's up to her.

i'm trying I hope it's logical :( it's a lot of drops.

thank you studspud :)

Been a day. Deep breath.

Everyone is on the pizza train!

Boki bok with friends.