3w ago

Time blindness

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Coworker: Can you do–
Me: [immediately starts doing it]
Coworker: no, not right now!
Me: buddy I'm doin now or never your choice

The sad thing is, there is a service that I need to cancel on my todo list for over 3 years, and it will take probably like an hour to do (update info in some places) and I'm still not doing it (and paying for it)
I hate this 🫥
- Hey, could you cancel it for me? I'd really appreciate it.
  I've got a phone call I've been putting off, but I'll make the call if you cancel that service.
  
  I’ll cancel both services for you both.
  10 bucks usd, Venmo.
  Services canceled and accounts deleted.
  I just need your email password, mother’s maiden names, zip code you were born in, and your last 5 street addresses.
  Thx.
- There's apps that cancel things for you. I haven't tried any because I'm afraid of giving someone my information.

I have two concepts of time.
Now and not now.
It's going to get me fired because my time estimates are always wildly off.
- Same, if I can work on something uninterrupted then I can tell you how long it will take. If I'm going to be doing other things and going to meetings at the same time I may not even remember your thing exists in a day or two.

This sort of thing honestly has me nervous about my plans to solo develop a large property into a small farm homestead.. on as small a budget as possible because I’d rather not have a bullshit other job.
I can hypothetically do things… but when.. that’s the problem.
Took 6 years to fix the hole in my living room ceiling. Mostly because I don’t care and it didn’t impact anything other than looking ugly.. it’s also probably a good thing I didn’t seal it up because I lost an exterior vent cover that hooks to a duct that apparently doesn’t exist anymore, and some birds got in and exited through the living room hole.. but regardless.
However I think I’ve finally overcome my burnout and deep depression (been intentionally unemployed for just over a year, and thus not looking for work, which is peaceful), and I’ve been actually getting a lot of stuff done, so maybe my dreams of installing my own solar, geothermal, root cellar, green house, barns, three season porches, etc… are doable if I don’t give myself deadlines..
- It sounds like we have similar long term plans! For what it’s worth, I’ve heard that homesteading can be great for folks with ADHD, since there are such a wide variety of ways to approach it and tasks that need doing, that it sates our need for novelty to stay engaged with things.
  
  That tracks. I lived way out on a pseudo-farmstead as a teen and that’s when I stopped taking meds. I was on them from 5-12 and then started cheeking them and stuff.. parents didn’t notice until they found my stash, and went “well, we didn’t notice, and you seem fine, so what do you want to do?” And I was off them until 32. I have a year stash of them now because I still don’t take them consistently, but have them for big jobs. They don’t give me motivation, so they don’t really help.
  I’ve also read that natural environments alone are enough to sooth a lot of said symptoms. Nature has a lot of sights, sounds, smells, and other sensations, so the body is fully stimulated, but not in an artificial, grating or irritating sort of way. Like I can stand the sound of wind, but a white noise generator, not so much.

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