(also caught cat sleeping in a basket when returned home early, before he was acting like "i don't believe in this made-up bullshit about baskets and cats")
I have been eating better and getting more routine exercise for 2 months and 1 month (respectively) and yesterday/this morning I felt like I noticed a real difference in my appearance. like I looked more how I wanted to look in my mind, which is not a thought I considered having in my 40s.
I don't track my weight (long story), but my belts have been getting cinched tighter for over a month and I've felt a shitload better for a while. I've got a routine Drs appointment where I'll be weighed in, so that will be interesting to see how it's going by all the indexes.
also, I get paid this week and it will be the first time since the move (2 months ago) where I will be running an actually monthly budget surplus and be able to contribute to savings again (instead of just raiding it).
feels like a lot of things in my personal life are turning a corner and confirming for me that making a huge change later in life (permanently relocating ~1500 miles away, leaving a lot of great people behind, new/more stable job for slightly less pay to start) was absolutely the right move. the new gig isn't perfect and I do miss my work friends terribly, but it's so much less toxic and dysfunctional. and no longer having to allocate the mental-emotional-social bandwidth to accommodate that toxicity anymore seems to have freed me up to take better care of myself and tackle life's challenges better.
I look forward more to the future, making new friends, discovering new places, and being of service to my new community. it's like a third act to my life has suddenly begun in a moment of desperate chaos, but now things are settling again enough for me to rebuild it all back better with more wisdom and introspection. and I'm here writing it and reading it at the same time, curiously optimistic and wondering where it will go.
to the foolish doomer, it may seem like good things never happen but arguably more good things happen every day than bad. every breath you take, every day the sun rises -- these are all objectively miracles.
The VOLCEL POLICE are on the scene! PLEASE KEEP YOUR VITAL ESSENCES TO YOURSELVES AT ALL TIMES.
نحن شرطة VolCel.بناءا على تعليمات الهيئة لترويج لألعاب الفيديو و النهي عن الجنس نرجوا الإبتعاد عن أي أفكار جنسية و الحفاظ على حيواناتكم المنويَّة حتى يوم الحساب. اتقوا الله، إنك لا تراه لكنه يراك.
Well it was last week, and it really only affects the people within its borders, but my ancestral homeland province of New Brunswick, Canada had an election where the incumbent head of government, Blaine Higgs, was absolutely handed his ass in multiple ways. He led the governing Progressive Conservative Party (aka the PCs) against the opposition provincial Liberal Party, who are slightly more socdem than the federal Liberal Party (which is a legally distinct entity).
This is extremely good news because he's a vicious transphobe who was planning to do even more horrible things if he retained power, like hand over mental health and addiction treatment services to private-sector for-profit evangelical crazies. He deliberately underfunded education and health care as part of his "starve the beast" ideology.
Some context about New Brunswick politics because oh boy is it way different from legislative politics outside of the Maritimes. It's more like municipal politics in large cities. Sitting members are called Members of the Legislative Assembly, or MLAs. Historically, the difference between the PCs and Liberals has not been ideological. It's mostly been about who one was buddy-buddy with in university. There have been socdem PCs, there have been right-wing Liberals, there have been frequent switching of parties by sitting MLAs as part of the normal political process. New Brunswick politics is extremely local. It's all about personal reputation of MLAs. Citizens are usually pretty OK with a sitting MLA changing parties if they feel it's for a good reason.
Blaine Higgs and his crew were very different from traditional PCs. They tried to bring in Alberta-style wedge issue politics and top-down absolute party control to NB politics. The minutia of that is a whole post on its own, but let's just say that NBers generally don't like that shit. Party leaders generally live in fear of their fellow party MLAs, especially the locally-popular ones.
One of the biggest election issues was his legislation to forcibly out trans kids to their parents. He's one of those "parents' rights" psychopaths. His Liberal Party leader challenger Susan Holt specifically ran on a policy of stopping that. And she won decisively.
But the absolutely biggest fuckup of his is that he has spent decades on an ideological crusade against any government programs that benefit the francophone people of New Brunswick, which are roughly 42% of the population. NB is Canada's only officially bilingual english/french province, and Higgs was a proud member of an extreme-right-wing english-superiority party in the 1990s called CoR. Higgs spent his tenure in politics refusing to learn french which is even more insane than a sitting Prime Minster refusing to learn french. He worked hard to specifically defund services in majority-francophone parts of the province, mostly the north and the east, and especially in the part of the province I'm from, the Acadian Peninsula.
Onto the good news! The ways this fucker was handed his ass include:
Losing his own riding. Just like other Westminster-type systems where Prime Ministers have to be Members of Parliament, Premiers have to be members of the provincial legislature. Theoretically another sitting legislature member can give up their own riding seat for the party leader to have a seat in the legislature. In practice this is really only used to give a popular incoming party leader without a seat a way to sit in the legislature so that they can govern properly. His own constituents, a notoriously conservative and extremely english area that have reliably voted PC for most of the time the PCs have existed, tossed him out with a record-high turnout of 75%. His ego will not recover from this. His own anglophone conservative base rejected him. That will rankle him until the day he dies. He doesn't take rejection well.
He led the PCs to their biggest defeat in decades. Citizens were simply fed up with his shit on all matters. Ridings that have been reliably PC for decades went Liberal because this election was basically a referendum on him. The PCs are now eating themselves in blame-game infighting, which is very good news. The seat counts went from 25 for PC, 16 for Liberal, and 3 for Green before the election to 16 PC, 31 Liberal, and 2 Green afterwards. The total seat counts change slightly because the riding boundaries change from election to election to reflect local population changes and try to keep things fair on a per-capita basis.
Most of his closest evangelical-crazy allies also lost their seats or failed their challenges against Liberal incumbents. It wasn't just that the PCs lost, but that the PCs specifically allied with him lost disproportionately. We won't be hearing from the religious crazies much in the legislature for the next 5-ish years. And there's a lot of trans kids in NB who are sleeping a lot safer now.
This election was really a referendum on trans issues, fairness in providing services to francophones, health care, housing, and education. On all fronts the NB Liberal Party is way better. I'm very cautiously optimistic about the new Premier Susan Holt. She's announced that the first order of business is residential rent caps of 3% annually, which is going to earn her the eternal loyalty of NBers in poverty because there were no rent caps previously. And she's already announced policy changes to gasoline taxation that are going to completely piss off the Irving crime family, so maybe the bad old days of the PCs and Liberals being the two wings of the Irving business empire might be done.
It'd just the Conservative Party. The Prigressive Conservatixes haven't been a thing foe a while and the current Cons are a combo ex the now defunct Alliance and Reform parties
while I'm sorry about the misstep, the mental image of someone puttering around their home, surrendering to the occasional irrepressible urge to yodel is absolutely delightful
My new ADHD meds seem to be working pretty well.
I love my home. I moved my furniture around and I love it even more now. I just washed my sheets.My parents visited recently and it was nice, they're so happy and they do so much lovely stuff. I realized how grateful I am to have them in my life.
I haven't had suicidal thoughts for a long while and the weather is nice. It's beautiful out here. The leaves just dropped from the trees today so the ground is as colorful as the forest was.
I had a good date and some great sex.
I am getting some money I wasn't aware of. I am beginning to write poetry again. I just got some cheap vegetables. I am loving myself and the world around me more and more with each day.
The local ice cream shop just got a new flavour.
What we do in the shadows has released a new season and I just now found out about it. It is funny.
Global news? China is doing cool shit all the time.