(CW/Self-Harm) apparently calling the suicide hotline can result in the cops showing up to drag you off to a psychological torture facility and being saddled with thousands in debt
This is why I would never again ever, EVER, tell anyone I was suicidal, no matter how much I thought I needed help. I've been to a "mental hospital" twice in my life for suicidal attempts/ideation and if that doesn't make you want to actually pull it off then nothing will.
They are the opposite of helpful and then when you get cut loose you'll be stuck with withdrawals for whatever medication they chose to force on you, and then they slap a few thousands dollars in bills on you that they know you already couldn't afford.