I think you have to be at least a little bit weird/crazy to be a communist these days, which predicates on one being able to question reality in the first place.
If you had been normal and well adjusted, you’d just consume and buy into all the mainstream propaganda being thrown at you without questioning them at all.
Being well adjusted by normie terms. Like doing road rage because you’re miserable all the time but unwilling to do any critical analysis about why so you’re a live wire. Then you get drunk with your buds and say a bunch of degrading things to eachother and claim it’s just proof you’re real friends to the end. All while complaining about your annoying wife who you’ve been emotionally unavailable to for a decade but it’s her fault not yours. And don’t get you started about your weird Bernie bro cousin who doesn’t understand how the world works! Then you get in bed with a tear in your eye because America is the greatest country on earth and have a fitful night of undiagnosed sleep apnea.
Yeah but ever since I became a communist everything fucking sucks when you actually look deeper into it from a Marxist lens and I don't know how to be happy lmao
For me it's the opposite since it gives you a solution and a better world to strive for. Being a liberal is far worse since they don't know the solution even exists, they think this is all we have and that we have to cope with living in capitalist hell forever, or at least until climate catastrophe comes and ends us.