But I don't wanna read I wanna snuggle

I find myself looking for mtf trans and crossdressing video content the most. Even if it's vanilla, even if real-life traps are flakes, even if the video is only 2 minutes long, for me masturbation has become a get-it-over-with experience until I find a partner again.

No sexy times recently. A lot of doomscrolling and dating app messages that went nowhere. I definitely overpaid for a pair of shiny black tights.

I put my sexual preferences in my dating profiles and I make sure I'm as direct as the setting allows. I can't understand people who are coy about their sexuality. Mismatching sexuality is absolutely a dealbreaker. I recently spent an entire day with a guy who suddenly decided he wasn't gay. Could have saved me the trouble.

I think it's good to get people's sexualities out in the open before the relationship even begins. Like, I'm a bottom and I simply don't fuck women (in a conventional sense). Gay guys are more understanding. It's kind of a big deal and I wouldn't want to lead with false assumptions.

Thanks for the encouragement. My mother is flat as well, but even the slightest hint of breasts is a strong signal to some heterosexual males. I don't see myself as a woman and most others don't either, but at some point I expect the woman switch to flip.

That's a nice long story with lots of twists and turns. There were a couple of minor grammatical errors and the improper use of double quotes near the bullet points. I like the cute/naughty organization as it helps me find my place without overcomplicating things. It sounds very vanilla tbh, but I guess D is that kind of guy. To me, dad body jerk-off isn't exactly the sexiest thing, but I'm sure to some people it's really hot. (I didn't watch the bonus video but I'm sure people will appreciate it.)

I'm traaaaaaaaaaans! Started estradiol and spironolactone last week. They say it takes like 10 days to a month to notice things, and so far I haven't seen a reduction in sex drive or alertness beyond my usual ebb and flow. Hair loss hasn't changed either, but my facial and body hair is thinner and softer, improving the feeling after a shave. Finasteride or dutasteride would do the same thing, but I'm hoping for eventual total feminization if possible. (I'm fine with having a dick, but I'm a bottom so I don't need it.)

I'm fascinated with women's fashion, and my makeup collection now fills a purse. Between Goodwill and Amazon I've accumulated a fairly complete wardrobe. It's mostly slutty stuff of course, and it's always slightly disappointing that I don't yet have titties to fill the tops. I really dig the schoolgirl look. A cosplay set I bought comes with a microskirt that feels like a 26" non-elastic waist (I'm 30", maybe women's size 5 or 6) so the thing rides really high and exposes my junk. UwU I'll be replacing it with a better fit when I go out in public. Hoping to get groped by a stranger on Halloween or something.

UwU thank you. I'm cumming around to appreciating daddies, but my attraction is quicker with femboys and trans people. Maybe we'll meet one day

They aren't, but chasing down websites in other languages is a pain in the ass. The Japanese see basically all non-Japanese people as copyright infringers. I've downloaded JAV that's bookended and watermarked with Chinese ads because the Chinese have the gall to do that, not the Japanese who probably see it as an annoyance and primarily target the domestic Japanese market anyways.

I told my first gf I was bi and she brought over her other boyfriend to tie me up and fuck my ass <3

Met a fellow 30something crossdresser and free software guy on Hinge. It seemed like a great fit. We met for coffee and talked for a few hours, then he told me he wasn't gay and didn't want to meet me again. For fuck's sake. My ass won't destroy itself. 🥵😭

Now that I've scrolled through 1000+ profiles and determined that they aren't gay enough for me (I don't really go for masc/closeted/straight-looking people and I try to limit the age range to 25-40s) I really need to figure out what the fuck part of this community I'm overlooking or not understanding. I'm willing to drop out of college and move for the right relationship. Ever since I became a gay femboy, things have gotten harder.

Grow your hair out and (if you're looking for things to buy) bleach/dye it.

Are long-term master/slave dynamics common in the gay community?

There is !chat@lemmynsfw.com but it's kinda dead

I know. I'm privacy conscious and have software dev and IT training. I'm a lot better than most zoomers in that regard. I'm just hoping that my niche actually exists in the real world and isn't purely a rhetorical construct invented to get underage queers to join discord servers and talk about identity issues. I would hope glowies have better things to do than infiltrate the gay community. I would also hope that the liminal space of looking like a girl but not identifying as one is a common shared experience. My litmus test is age, so the more 40something and 50something femboys and sissies I see, the more secure I am in the label's legitimacy. Do girly boys hold a special place in your heart?

My sexy fun for the year seemed to start and end in July. It seems I can't get much, but that doesn't stop me from trying. I brought a gay friend to a BDSM group a couple days ago, and he politely observed and listened to people talk. Very quiet and non-confrontational sort of guy. I don't think he's interested in me.

I've also taken an interest in niche dating sites - made an account on Duolicious and managed to make contact with a metrosexual 24-year-old, but he's so incredibly shy and reserved that I don't think it's going anywhere. I also found a site called Sissy Island, but they're having server errors. If I could date only in femboy and sissy circles, especially if the crowd skews more to Gen Y, I couldn't ask for more. My sexuality is abnormal, and I guess I'm going against the grain by avoiding people I'm not attracted to, since the standard for my generation seems to be having no standards.

To be the webcam on that netbook <3

Where indeed? I'm pansexual, currently leaning more gay, nb-presenting male with a thin frame. If I had no standards, I could probably find some bear in the area. Scruff is another gay app, and I managed to meet someone through that who looks like my type but isn't much of a top and didn't want to meet again. I'm also on a BDSM-focused gay site called Recon, where I've been engaged in a multi-month ongoing conversation with this shy pantyhose fetishist who eventually wants to try things. I avoid Grindr because I'm not looking for disposable experiences.

I've been in femboy mode for the past 6 months, and it has not delivered results. Unless you count some negativity from an old lady on a bus. I've only been using nail polish for a couple weeks, and I did get a positive comment on that. Unfortunately, I'm tall and have stress lines on my face, so it's hard for me to feel cute, and I get into a negative feedback loop because of that.