Yeah I'm in that trial and error part of this myself. But hopefully starting to come to the end of that now and growing up a little lol. As far as style goes, I think I've always leaned towards androgyny anyway. Looking back, I actually leeched quite a few aspects of my style and taste from women along the way that I wasn't sure if I wanted to be or be with.
Although I mean, still mostly men's or neutral clothing. But I've definitely noticed that my style is on the border enough where if I have short hair and facial hair no one bats an eyelid but if I have long hair and no facial hair I'll get the occasional double take. I have been mistakenly called ma'am or miss once or twice in my life (with the person correcting themself after more than a glance) before I even had this awakening, just from being a long hair lol. Most of my shit is getting old though. Plus I think I'm wanting to push boundaries a little more now.
And now I've spent like 90% of this post talking about clothes 🙄 As for HRT, I've definitely been lurking and exploring for long enough now to know that it's not a requirement for being non-binary. Despite everything I said in my main post, I definitely do wish I was AFAB for a lot of reasons and feel dysphoria a lot stronger on some days more than others. So I guess HRT would mostly be treatment for that. But also curiosity to see what it would do for my mind, with or without dysphoria.
And I'll definitely be looking at binding methods and stuff for the knowledge but I do have doubts about how realistic / comfortable / healthy binding larger boobs daily would be. Not that it's a guarantee that I would end up with big boobs but I highly suspect I would.
I hope that you're in a country that's not going crazy and turning back the clock on social progress. I came to this awakening late in life and I'm not even planning on telling my parents. The only family members I would tell are my two older sisters but if they went badly it would break me, so I probably won't.
It means thinking they should be together in a relationship (ship comes from the word relationship, I believe). This is a thing that people do a lot in fandoms for fiction stuff. Like shipping two characters together from comics or a TV show or whatever.
I look forward to this becoming an option 30 years from now and for the price of a couple months salary.
Cat sitting, so I'll be spending my weekend in service of a superior being. A very sweet and affectionate superior being though.
Thank you, Wise Pancake. I appreciate the response and advice here.
As far as friends go. Honestly I lost touch with most of my old friends a few years ago already. And going by what I've picked up looking around Facebook (still widely used in my country), I've grown apart from a lot of them anyway. I've spoken to one or two in the last year at least but it becomes clearer as the conversation goes that there's nothing to actually talk about anymore. And I fucking hate the "so what are doing with yourself" question lol.
New friends suck to make for a lot of the same reasons. I feel shame about the situation that I'm in currently. I don't want to be put into a situation where I need to explain my situation in life at this point and how I live. And it's not shame from imagining what other people must think of me (well not entirely), it's my own shame. I never wanted to and don't want to live like this. Little me would be sad to know what became of big me.
You can sure as fuck count out romance too. I think part of why I decided to stay single and not even try a few years ago is because no one deserves this mess and I'm too embarrassed to let anyone see this mess of a life in the first place.
And definitely, meds are a reason why I've been trying the government system. Not meds exclusively but psychological/ psychiatric help. But I'm pretty doubtful of that avenue leading anywhere soon after my experience so far.
Yeah and something rare for most shows I find is that this just keeps getting better and better as it goes along. And it peaks at the end, not season 1. And all the characters just get cooler as it goes. Binged this in about two days last year some time. And it's definitely worth a rewatch some time in the future.
Back with a couple more that I didn't think of last time I was here (not a moderator of any of these). Both animation (not anime): !theowlhouse@lemmy.world, !shera@lemmy.blahaj.zone
There's also !ghostintheshell@lemmy.world but it seems sadly dead. And !thecrow@lemmy.world which hasn't had a post in 6 months and could include movies, series and comics.
Edit: also if you're in need of broader categories too there's !animation@lemm.ee for animation as a whole and !dcstudios@lemmy.world for DC comics film and TV adaptations. And I'm not sure if you'd consider pro wrestling to be under the sports or TV category but also !SquaredCircle@lemmy.zip for all things pro wrestling.
I think they have value in "de-rutting" your thoughts. I find they foster creativity and unjam blocks and such by putting a new way of looking at issues.
That's exactly the way I look at things like tarot as well. The cards tell you little stories that you relate to things in your own life. And it can provide new angles to look at things from and possible new insights. It's definitely not how it's portrayed in movies and Death does not literally mean death lol. I think something like astrology works in pretty much the same way.
I love it! I'm also pretty fond of words like shenanigans and hijinks.
The way I see it, free speech doesn't mean freedom from consequences for what you say. You're free to walk up to the friend group and act like a jackass and personally insult everyone. And they're free to tell you to fk off and stop being friends with you and talking to you. That's not an infringement on your right to free speech, that's consequences for your actions.
These 'free speech' people act like the real world is this place where you can just approach and interrupt any conversation and enter any club without following the rules. They act like groups of like minded people getting together to share interests and ideas without wanting to constantly defend themselves and 'debate' their interests and beliefs is some new thing brought to us by the woke agenda.
And so they think social media should be this place where you can say whatever to whoever, wherever you want and if anyone has a problem with that, they're just anti 'free speech' woke libs or some shit.
Thinking about it, I think I've got two different kinds or tiers of 'belief'. There's science and realism and shit in the main, serious tier. Core beliefs, I guess. Then there's the magical, fun tier. I like a little magic and see no harm in it (as long as that magic doesn't have anything to do with in and out crowds and finger pointing and judgement). This tier is for ghosts and the metaphysical and tarot and old gods etc. Stuff that I don't necessarily believe believe but find enriching anyway. I haven't nurtured this tier for a long time myself though.
That said. I've definitely had one or two weird experiences in life, although also more when I was younger and more open to it. So I'm not going to rule it out. But I'm also just as open to there always being some 'real' explanation.
Thank you very much! That looks like a great place to get ideas indeed.
Nice, I love it too. Haven't followed this band religiously every step of the way over the years but this whole album was part of my soundtrack for a while, a couple years ago.
Yeah this sounds kinda like the same deal as with Fable Anniversary years ago. It also used the original game files wrapped up in the Unreal engine and modding was possible with the original tools.
Nowhere does it say fucking anything about oppression in the picture that she's losing her shit about here. It's something that she could've literally just scrolled past and gone on with her day. I'm so fucking sick of these people.
Either to be a rockstar or a game developer or an author / journalist.
I am so ready for the witches to overthrow the patriarchy and devour Kevin's soul. Kevin has had his turn fucking up the world for long enough now.
All caught up with the latest season of Ghosts (US version). Another 3 episodes to go including one tomorrow. I definitely hate the weekly format more when the episode is only 20 minutes long excluding ad breaks. Spoiler in case anyone plans to watch: ::: spoiler spoiler I LOVE the new ghost, she's awesome. But I'm guessing this means that someone is getting sucked off at the end of the season and leaving the show. :::
Also, wouldn't mind checking out the UK version of this show, I just don't know how close the stories are and don't want spoilers.
