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I Am Not Always Very Attached To Being Alive: Living With Passive Suicidal Ideation
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Chronic, passive suicidal ideation is like living in the ocean. Let’s start talking about how to tread water.

I am not always very attached to being alive

> At 27, I’ve settled into a comfortable coexistence with my suicidality. We’ve made peace, or at least a temporary accord negotiated by therapy and medication. It’s still hard sometimes, but not as hard as you might think. What makes it harder is being unable to talk about it freely: the weightiness of the confession, the impossibility of explaining that it both is and isn’t as serious as it sounds. I don’t always want to be alive. Yes, I mean it. No, you shouldn’t be afraid for me. No, I’m not in danger of killing myself right now. Yes, I really mean it. > > How do you explain that?

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[USA] Appeals court rules that cops can physically make you unlock your phone
  • If the police and/or Crown Prosecution Service claim you're hiding Material behind a password, you can either hand over the password or get thrown in jail under RIPA §53.

    I don't know what section of the US Code would apply for the same, but a generic "Obstructing Justice" wouldn't surprise me.

  • Post Office accidentally leaks names of sub-postmasters
  • This was on PM earlier, they were interviewing one of the named postmasters: she only found out about this leak when The Mail called for a quote.

    As she said herself, there's accident and there's incompetence; this leans heavily to the latter.

  • [USA] Appeals court rules that cops can physically make you unlock your phone
  • That's law in the UK:

    Section 49 of the Regulation of Investigatory Powers Act 2000 gives the police the power to issue a notice which requires the suspect to disclose their PIN or password if necessary. You are not compelled to provide your password to the police in any instance.

    However, section 53 of RIPA makes it a criminal offence not to comply with the terms of a s.49 notice which is punishable by up to two years imprisonment and up to 5 years imprisonment in cases involving national security and child indecency.

  • Israel using trebuchet to fire flaming projectile at Hezbollah
  • "I do not know with what weapons World War III will be fought, but World War IV will be fought with sticks and stones." - Albert Einstein.

    Snopes says this sentiment was actually expressed by Einstein, though perhaps not in this exact phrasing.

  • After Peddling Fake Hamas 'Beheaded Babies' Story, Media Ignores Actual Beheaded Palestinian Baby
  • As I understand it, the prophecy is that when the state of Israel is fully unified once more, and the temple of Solomon is rebuilt, Jesus will return and the second battle of Armageddon will commence.

    End of the world, rapture of the believers into Heaven, the whole bit.

  • What looks easy peasy lemon squeezy but is actually difficult difficult lemon difficult?
  • A tip one contractor passed on to me when caulking: use pieces of toilet paper to smooth it out after applying. You won't get your fingers gunked up, and toilet paper's cheap enough that you can use a bit to smooth off a few inches of caulk and throw the paper away.

    Think I got through half a roll when sealing up a window frame a couple years back, looks great.

  • The maniac
  • According to the Tolkien Professor (during his YouTube streams on the History of Middle Earth series) there was always the intent to publish the Quenta Silmarillion (the central tale of the Silmarils) as a First-Age story of the Elves, but it kept getting revised and rewritten and never reached a publishable form.

    Until Tolkien's son wanted to complete that piece of the legacy, and found multiple (sometimes contradictory) sets of notes and mostly-finished stories, and Editorial Decisions had to be made.

  • I'm the author of an April Fool's Internet Standard, AMA
  • Being realistic, it's not something I see gaining adoption, mostly because HTCPCP is a joke protocol and isn't a complete spec. Any internet-connected coffee machine nowadays would probably go through a ZigBee proxy or similar, and talk some proprietary format.

  • [Meta] Decronym is now running on /c/selfhosted
  • The database is domain-specific: here in /c/selfhosted, an acronym like IP (if I had that in the list) would mean something different to a database for (say) /c/legal. General acronyms like YSK aren't included.

  • [Meta] Decronym is now running on /c/selfhosted
  • You make a fine point: it's case-sensitive, so it'd only see PiHole. Which I guess is fine...

    It also doesn't kick in until at least five comments have been left on a thread, so as not to be spammy as much as possible.

  • [Meta] Decronym is now running on /c/selfhosted

    A couple of weeks ago, I posted a thread here asking whether y'all could make use of Decronym the acronym explainer bot, and reaction was positive.

    I finally got around to setting up an initial version of the database earlier today, so Decronym is now running; this post links to the current list of 40 or so acronyms that have definitions, based almost entirely on acronyms that been used in the pinned "What do you selfhost" thread.

    If I've made glaring errors or omissions, do let me know and the database can be updated. Otherwise, let's see how this thing fares.

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    I'm the author of an April Fool's Internet Standard, AMA

    Let's get the AMAs kicked off on Lemmy, shall we.

    Almost ten years ago now, I wrote RFC 7168, "Hypertext Coffeepot Control Protocol for Tea Efflux Appliances" which extends HTCPCP to handle tea brewing. Both Coffeepot Control Protocol and the tea-brewing extension are joke Internet Standards, and were released on Apr 1st (1998 and 2014). You may be familiar with HTTP error 418, "I'm a teapot"; this comes from the 1998 standard.

    I'm giving a talk on the history of HTTP and HTCPCP at the WeAreDevelopers World Congress in Berlin later this month, and I need an FAQ section; AMA about the Internet and HTTP. Let's try this out!

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    Would you guys be able to make use of an acronym helper bot?

    Hi, I'm the maintainer of Decronym. You may have come across Decronym on the aliensite, especially in the spaceflight communities; it picks up on comments that contain acronyms (that are in its database), and drops a helpful top-level comment on the thread that it keeps up to date as more acronyms get used.

    Decronym's now running on Lemmy, here's a comment it left in /c/spacex a few days ago. There are a few acronyms and other bits of jargon that get thrown around in the selfhosted space: VPS, Plex, Debian and such like... so I wondered if y'all would welcome Decronym making comments in threads here?

    If that sounds like a good idea, drop a comment with some acronyms and definitions you'd like Decronym to keep in its database, and I can look into getting it set up. Thanks!

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