That shit took everything from me and continues to.

I don't feel like calling 988 for the seventeenth time this month they just don't understand and honestly, no one will. Everyone justifies the abuse that took away my entire childhood and ruined my life.

It didn't only happen to me but to several children who were mentally murdered until they became zombies when they could have had real lives. I'm the lucky one because I got to get a real job unrelated to that shit or that institution.

I really imagine what these children's lives would have been if society viewed autism as the stupid fake santa claus shit it is. If the parents actually looked into what the children were dealing with instead of labeling it as some fake shit with no meaning, the children could have actually had those particular issues fixed and they could have had real lives with real friends, real jobs, and real experiences they can look back on.

However instead they live a life that is essentially the Truman Show while stagnating for their entire childhood and having their parents hate them and bully them for being a burden.

A burden they wouldn't have been if they were just educated like everyone else. https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=KW_F7xG5J5c

I'm mourning lost time and I feel guilty for surviving and making it out of the institution.

Nintendo is THE reason I made it out too; they are the reason I wanted to make games since I was 5. If I didn't have game design as my career choice, I would not have made it out of there. The "angel of salvation" thing is a joke and a silly Poppy Playtime reference but the more I ruminate about my past, the less of a joke it is. Nintendo is less like the mother I never had, and more like my religious leader.

Amazon is where I work and is the only place I can work for that didn't require references or even an interview. In my state they didn't even require my high school diploma! This way ZERO documents with ugly tragedeigh birth name that tied me to the puzzle piece were used. I'm now a Learning Ambassador (I'm basically still regular but I train people!) and I'm making my way up the ladder. Amazon feels like the father I never had. And they employ many disabled people for livable wages. I do not give a bloody rat's scrotum that a cognitively disabled person gets twenty united states dollars an hour for putting bags in shelves and aligning carts. They're actually helping the process for the standard shift people by a WHOLE LOT. The standard shift people are too burned out to do those tasks at the end of their shifts and doing it at the beginning is counterproductive. And for being incredibly helpful, contributing to why everyone gets fast delivery, they get a real fucking job and a real fucking life instead of being a self-hating burden nobody loves.

The first step to save all these children is to eradicate the concept of autism. It's fake and stupid. Really, a disorder that can basically vary from being bald to having no limbs and eyes? Then the hypothetical bald kid is treated like the limbless eyeless kid and doesn't ever grow up while the limbless eyeless kid is treated like a bald kid faking a disability. The ambiguous spectrum is a lie. NONE of these children have anything in common, so they shouldn't have the same label.

Actually spend time with your child, accommodate and fix the issue(s), and give them a real life. If nonverbal people, blind people, people with down syndrome, and even more can work from 1AM to 12PM, so can your child. And if they can't, then they can work the 3PM to 10PM shifts sorting Same-Day orders and/or setting up the station for the next shift. And this is just Delivery Station I'm using as an example; Amazon has many other jobs available for ANYONE.

Nobody needs to be a burden. If you don't want to raise a disabled child then do not ever try for a baby. Adopt a "normal" child, or get a big dog.