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2w ago

Anyone wants to chat with me ? Im schizophrenic and kind of feeling fucked up

Im schizophrenic, and I feel like Im getting unstable ( Im not in any immediate danger). Im seeing my doctor on Tuesday and weighing my options. I have problems—some real and probably some imagined.

I would consider myself usually stable and functioning but im aware things can get really bad.

I had some really fucking bad phases in the past.

I wish I could just tough it out, but I can see how my mental state is slowly weakening, so I feel like I need to reach out.

I hope this type of thread is allowed here

EDIT : Thanks for all the input and answers

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If you want a bit of a laugh I saw this on xhs: What is the strongest military US, China, Russia? (many chinese netizens) Clearly South Korea they dared to build a country on top of a US military base
Anything funny you have seen recently?

whats the most fun thing youve ever done
- I would probably say playing Rugby when I was younger- just a really fun sport to me.
  Recently ? I played a pc game called Balatro its a poker inspired roguelike pretty fun
  
  Balatro is a banger! In a similar vein, Luck Be A Landlord is a faux slot machine roguelike (lite?) that I discovered around the same time and it’s also a banger!

I'm sorry that's happening. The beginning of this year hasn't been great for many people lol. How's life? Got any 2025 resolutions?
- Get my shit together. Keep working out. I want to try and get into a relationship again. Also I want to reach a decent level at cooking.
  
  What's your current level of cooking like? I bloody love it for getting out of my head (anxiety here, nothing quite as a severe as what you're experiencing...).
  Always happy to discuss food. Full disclosure I'm vegetarian and am cursed when it comes to baking potatoes, so I may not be a great person to get advice from.
  
  Working out more is a big goal for me this year, too. At first it was just for my health and to look good for my upcoming wedding, but now it's also because I'm worried about the fascists coming into office here in the US 😬. Not to bring up more anxiety-causing things lol.
  Also feeling the cooking thing. I've been watching all these cooking and baking shows to calm me down and relax me between all the depressing news and stuff, which makes me want to try it. It's just spending the time and energy to find recipes or cook them after coming home that's annoying.

If you feel the need you can dm me if you'd like! I'm sorry you're having a hard go of it right now. You mentioned paranoia, that sounds really hard. :/ like not too many ways to engage in "reality testing" (not a fan of that phrase but you probably know what I mean)

I'm here if you wanna vent.

If I can ask what interventions have you tried in the past? I know it is linked to brain desync issues and possibly visual stuff. Are there any particular changes in your life that have occurred with this flare up
- I spent time in closed facilities when things got really fucking bad. I would like to avoid that in the future....which is why im extra careful. Like Im gonna leave work early today and head straight to bed and probably sleep like 10h

Shit's gonna be okay eventually friend. Maybe today isn't going well, but maybe tomorrow will. Whatever happens just stay here so you can find out about tomorrow.

Im a diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic, if you want to talk feel free to DM me (or feel free to ask here as well!)

- Not particularly helpful I think in this context.
- We tend to defer to material reality around these here parts.
- While I have experienced auditory and visual hallucinations in the past, my main problem by far is paranoia and the anxiety and dread that come with it.

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