I feel like absolute trash for not knowing what to get my friends for Christmas and just generally not being able to invest too much energy into the holidays.
It is less than a week till Christmas and I still have not gotten anything ordered or anything, I have felt depressed and low energy these pasts couple of months, I cannot even keep up with my house chores which angers my roommates. I don't think they want to hear about my mental health anymore, I think they are gonna be very upset when they bought me thing and I got nothing or just offered cash since I really have no energy to shop for them and I have no idea what to get and this has been a major cause of stress these past couple of weeks on top of non stop work, with only one day off in between. I just feel like I am crashing out and wondering if I should just move out and be homeless since I cannot really be the best roommate right now
I find giving gifts hard as well, and I hate that I' often expected to be happy, even if I have no need or use for the thing
So I talked with family and friends, I don't want gifts, I don't need gifts. I'm happy to meet, have a nice dinner. This made christmas soo much better for me. With my partner we write a list of stuff we'd like, and we get the other one/two things from that list to keep the surprise part. A surprising number of friends like giving gifts, but don't expect it to be returned if you don't want to.
I feel like your problems go a lot deeper, but a preemptive talk about it csn help if they are reasonable people