It's the whole "not allowed to smile" thing. I had my photos taken at the local post office newsagency and the woman kept saying, "you're not allowed to smile." I'd be like, "but I'm not smiling!" She said "yes you are, you're not allowed to or they won't accept the photo" and I'd say "but I'm not!" We actually both ended up laughing at me for a solid few minutes there. I didn't think I was, but I was. I just couldn't glare into the camera like an angry serial killer lol.
I've lost so much strength and weight since lockdowns, various factors making it incredibly hard to eat enough and stay active. I can feel my hamstrings have tightened and my posture has suffered. The muscle gains I worked for are gone.
I don't want to go back to the light weights/exercise band and have to slowly earn years of progress back 😑 Doing anything is hard, being consistent feels impossible and most days I don't even actually want to be alive.
I guess I'll do 10 dumbbell rows on each side and call it a day because I can feel my spine fusing over like Mr Burns. 🍤