I'm worried for the world. All I've been thinking about is WW3 and this shit makes me want to vomit. I can't even smoke weed anymore without having a near panic attack. I feel unmotivated. I wake up and immediately just want to go back to bed. I'm not trying to spread fear but the Doomsday clock is 90 seconds till midnight, during the Cuban missile crisis, it was 7 minutes before midnight. Can we just have one day of fucking peace? Can everyone just stop for one day and enjoy one day of peace?
I'd suggest getting therapy. Perhaps explore anxiety medication. Having anxiety over conflict across the world that you have no control over and have little effect on you is not healthy.
Some places are. I looked around until I found a community care clinic for people who don't have insurance. It's free. The university near me also offers free/low cost therapy. Years ago before we were married, my wife and I found couples counseling from an intern who was gaining experience at no cost to us.
I know everyone doesn't have the same resources, but just wanted to point out that if someone gives up because they assume it's expensive, they may not find the affordable options available to them.
I’ll admit I’m ignorant on the price of weed which is why I just left it at self medicate.
Where I live an hour visit with a therapist is about $180 if you don’t have insurance, depending on how often you get seen, you can easily spend that bar hopping or buy handles of crown over 2 weeks or a month.
If the weed is still leaving you anxious, saving for therapy or using resources to reduce the cost of it is worth a shot. I’m not trying to be a prude and say “don’t do drugs” I’m just trying to advocate for effective mental healthcare