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so, it turns out my sibling, after college, they became fearful for their (and our family's) life and started pressuring my family. They are controlling me, my grandmother, and my mom.

Recently, I've seen this manifest in their confrontations.

1. They says something ridiculous (usually about leaving the door unlocked for 10 secconds; not looking behind enough; ).
2. I prove them wrong;
3. They gets mad and insist being right.
4. I slowly get angered when they keeps insisting I'm wrong
5. then I get uncomfortable and angered so I request to end the conversation and they refuse and insist on me "listening to them" (repeat, multiple times)
6. I enforce my boundaries (usually when I get harassed).
7. They harass and try to assult me (they broke the door in my room).

This happened in the past few months…

Well, my mom (a "mental health" therapist, ugh) is basically not doing a thing to fix their problems (anger management therapy); my mom instead just coddles them and blames me for starting them up, when they are pressuring me and our family. (Why am I surprised? Christian liberal-supporters who haven't read the bible, get mad when their children curse (but nor anyone else), and overstock on food; turn out to be garbarge parents and enablers…)

My aunt went on about how "I need to bond with my family and work together" (which really just means "do as they say").

Grandmother cant do a thing about it; because she's weak.

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Also, I'm thinking about signing out for good; if I keep posting; I might actually dox myself.

I'm confessing this now, so I can still maintain my accountability (and not become a piece of shit).

I found porn (firstly face sitting and then wetting) when I was 13; I wish I didn't. I was trying (and unsurprisingly failed) to 'get' a girlfriend. (Retrospect, Big mistake was thinking to 'get' one as if they are objects to obtain like game rewards; I learnt that lesson, lol.)

I still watch it 5 years later… that was a mistake (albeit unconcious, but still my fault) as I am aware of what porn addicts become if they don't stop.

I heard that porn was bad through yourbrainonporn, but some of studies had low sample sizes and subjective measures for testing that I jumped to the conclusion that porn wasn't harmful.

Well, I'm realizing that lacking a source doesn't automatically invalidate someone; and that the harm done is through spreading misogynist ideology.

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Of course, (usonian) capitalism is part of the problem. The people are heavily isolated by car-centric transportation, isolated through work, the capitalist state (police and psychiatry), etc. Unsurprisingly, as long as those systems exists, I'm likely going to struggle worse with fighting porn addiction; as I have no consistent acquaintances.

I would have told my parents when this first started; but I feared getting abused (this is the reactionary U.S we're talking about).

I wish I was born in the USSR, where they banned porn. It would have been great to never deal with that.

The ban reason:

> reason: constant ableism, previously temp banned for it and returned with no change. Pushing a problematic narative that belittles mental illness, very dangerous stuff. There's no place on lemmygrad for this kind of harmful content.

What fucking ableism was there?! I was advocating for patient rights and the proper use of the scientific method!

I stated that mental disorders can't be objectively falsified as they have no assigned mechanism and was formed from assertions; thus they are unscientific. Is that "ableist" to them?!

What "problematic" narrative was I spreading?! I was promoting skepticism of Psychiatric treatments and proper use of the scientific method.

They just can't handle the truth can they? Honestly, fuck them anyway! Ok that was bit rude, but If they don't even know what science is; how could I expect them to fairly analyze my criticisms of psychiatry?

Instead of improving themselves or bothering to explore the anti-psychiatry movement; they just censor me off the platform for criticisms of Psychiatry and falsely claim that I'm ableist.

EDIT: And they do the same bullshit of calling critics of Psychiatry, not even just anti-psychiatry advocates, "dangerous". Straight up calling skepticism of an unscientific field dangerous huh?!

What fucking harm was there?! Barely anyone even listened to me in the first place; and I was posting scientific studies that showed a different conclusion to what the Psychiatric institution propagates. How am I harming anyone?!

My reasoning was that it would "help my microbiome". I'm so stupid; I'm too impulsive. The piece I had was light colored and it was as wide as a fork.

My mouth is dry and I'm peeing clear pee when I didn't have much water, so I think I have food poisoning.

I'm pissed that my mom is just trying to shrug off my worries. It has been 2 hours since I had that piece.

I'm going to fucking hate my life after this. Hope I don't die.

Wow. Just banning me instead of engaging with the topic. lol.

It's purely reactionary and out of emotion. I can tell because people just lose their mind when people criticize Psychiatry; and even worse when telling them that it's a pseudo-scientific field (it is).

To the Admin that banned me.

I do admit that I made some bad choices. I shared an article without reading it and got mislead by the headline; the result is that I missed a pro-psychiatry take in it (that antidepressants "still work" supposedly).

However, it's not a good look to anyone to just ban criticism of Psychiatry without even addressing their concerns.

You being diagnosed with ADHD doesn't mean anything; it doesn't change the material reality that ADHD is not based on science. I also am diagnosed with ADHD and Autism, and at age 3 too; but I don't kneejerk hate on anyone when they express that ADHD and Autism is a psuedoscientific label, because I am willing to look beyond my preconceived notion to see their viewpoint; even if it is difficult to do.

Example: I can deny that I have a hiatal hernia; but the hernia will still exist in material reality in regardless of my thought.

Me being diagnosed with ADHD does not change the material reality of ADHD to make it exist.

It is not a good look to people critical of Psychiatry and especially victims of Psychiatry to just hate the Antipsychiatry movement and impulsively censor them, without even doing in-depth research into it; because of some preconceived biases. A lot of people have been abused by Psychiatry and have experience being abused.

Similar Experience

I, like you, used to believe that I was just lazy and couldn't work because of my "ADHD"; I never looked into that reason for a while.

I then discovered the anti-psychiatry movement; but I didn't impulsively hate on it. I instead explored antipsychiatry; because I think that it's never a bad idea to explore the oppositions' viewpoint.

I was already a Marxist then. I just needed was a different perspective to view Psychiatry. I tried to apply dialectical materialism to Psychiatry; but I noticed that Psychiatry isn't based in science; it just asserts that mental disorders exist. That's why I agree with the Antipsychiatry movement.

Now through a viewpoint without Psychiatry; I see several causes for my past lethargy:

• Suppressed Stomach Acid through Proton Pump Inhibitors. Since stomach acid needs to be acid to extract nutrients;
• The oppressive capitalist system.
• The oppressive U.S school system. U.S schools are known to decrease critical thinking in children.
• U.S foods. U.S foods regularly incorporate unhealthy ingredients, like added sugar, seed oils, and corn syrup. This reduces the ability for me to have good energy.
• Stimulants harm the body. It would be a minor cause.

These explanation are all based on past information built through science and they give a better explanation for my past lethargy than "ADHD".

It's the same stuff with Autism

Autism is the same deal. I didn't really speak until 6 or 7; which is apparently not normal. That doesn't mean I believe in Autism; I just believe that people can differentiate in when they speak.

Conclusion

Yes, I apologize for spreading misleading information; no I don't apologize for being Antipsychiatry and showing that Psychiatry is a pseudoscience. We Marxists must uphold critical thinking; otherwise we fall into the trap of indoctrination.

Regardless of this event, I will continue to try to maintain respect and support the communist revolution the best I can. (Assuming I can survive of course.) Me being banned off a communist platform won't change that.

I had been falsely permanently suspended from Reddit, and not just on my account, but also on all of my sister’s accounts. All of them. They suspended each and every single one of them. I had since deleted my account and decided to make homes on Lemmy and SaidIt. I will explain everything that led up to this point, because quite frankly, this might be the stupidest suspension ever. I am very unhappy with how Reddit handled the situation. Like, very unhappy.

Reddit handled this situation very poorly. Quite frankly, their handling of it was the worst I have ever seen from Reddit. Basically, this nonsense all started because of a certain stalker on Reddit. Destrucity was their name. They were the most butthurt snowflake on all of Reddit. They had been constantly harassing and even stalking me on every single post I created. They kept telling me that dyscalculia, a very much real learning disability, wasn’t real and was fake. The thing is, no matter how many times they got suspended from Reddit, they would make more alt accounts and do the same thing again. They were the worst of the worst. They kept trying to convince me it was fake and I constantly attempted to shut them up, but to no avail as they continued to make more accounts and go right back to harassing me.

The thing is, after the user got butthurt by me for the first time, they reported me to Reddit. Sooner or later, I got hit with a 3-day suspension. They clearly were just butthurt and so, they reported me and I got suspended. Keep in mind this is only the one of two suspensions I had recieved because of them in particular. Destrucity could not be stopped. The user also would have been able to make another account anyway. The thing is, Reddit doesn’t judge fairly. If you are reported, you will probably get a suspension from the site, and for no reason, might I add.

Immediately after I was unsuspended I started to get pissed off with my stalker and plastered them all over Reddit, because they were the most pathetic user I have ever seen on the entire site. I posted everywhere I could to get some form of help, but either barely anyone were willing to help me, or I would just get silenced as enforced by the ‘politically correct’ agenda on Reddit. Finally, some users were able to give me some form of advice, and I got backed up by people who were on my side. For the first time on Reddit, I actually felt like people actually cared about me as a person, which is a very rare sight to see on Reddit.

To no surprise, Destrucity continued their endless harassment and bullying, and eventually, I snapped. I chatted with them and called them ‘pathetic’, because continually making new accounts to harass and stalk a specific user is pathetic. Yet they’re unwilling to accept it because they have absolutely no life outside of Reddit. Once again, the user got butthurt because I called them ‘pathetic’, and once again reported me to Reddit. This time, I did not get a 3-day suspension, I got a 7-day suspension instead. A 7-day suspension for having an appropriate emotional response to someone else’s BS. I even explained it to Reddit, and they wouldn’t even care, because come the next day, Reddit did the unthinkable.

After I woke up, that being today, I had noticed that Reddit had changed their minds and updated my suspension. No, it was not 3-days, 7-days, a month, or even a year. It was a permanent suspension from Reddit for ‘ban evasion’. You know, that right there is BS. And also, they suspended all other accounts that had some tie to it. I got multiple emails from Reddit stating I was suspended. This was an absolute overkill decision from Reddit to permanently suspend me from the entire site over something I did not do. I have never, ever evaded a ban on Reddit, so their blatantly false accusation about me evading my ban was a big bundle of crap. And it all started because a neckbeard keyboard warrior on Reddit was being a dick. And I didn’t even get to be on Reddit for even a year before I got suspended.

I tried to send off an appeal, but I knew it would not be accepted and I would get the usual denied message. So, that was it. That was the straw that broke the camel’s back. I decided that enough was enough and I was no longer going to use Reddit because of this overkill and very unjust decision they pulled out of their asses. I frankly deleted my account because of Reddit’s false accusation which resulted in me getting suspended. I even told them in the message that they would never see me again. It felt so good to finally break out of Reddit’s grasp. It honestly felt like breaking up and getting out of a bad relationship. As such, I decided to make a Lemmy account. Reddit is history to me and I won’t be making another account to feed their hive mind echo chamber. They lost a valuable user today and they won’t be getting it back.

This is a sign we need to stop using Silicon Valley tech. The big tech giants are controlling of everything and if you say or do something that does not meet their ‘politically correct’ agenda, expect to be banned from the site. The only thing Silicon Valley giants care about are control and money. We need to start migrating to decentralized sites like this one, whose goal is clear: to allow anyone to speak freely without oppression. Reddit is not how it used to be. Over the past 3 years, Reddit has gotten worse and worse. The thing I am saying is: let those sites become the hive mind echo chamber they were designed to be. Let them die. Just move your stuff over to decentralized sites. Like, leave YouTube and switch to Odysee. Leave Twitter and switch to Mastodon. And especially, leave the hive mind echo chamber we call Reddit and switch to Lemmy or SaidIt. If it wasn’t clear enough, Reddit, YouTube, Twitter, and others don’t care about you. Leave the sites and switch to more decentralized alternatives. We can only defeat Big Tech giants if we let them rot as their little echo chambers. That is the only true way we can win.