peanutbuttercupola [she/her] @hexbear.net

4w ago

Lime(stone) Trans Megathread from April 14th, 2025 to April 20th, 2025

Limestone is a common type of sedimentary rock which I find uncommonly interesting! It's mostly calcium carbonate, which is also what eggshells 🥚, seashells 🐚, and pearls 🦪 are made out of.

In places where it rains a lot, limestone erodes easily, which results in simply gorgeous landscapes such as:

Hạ Long Bay in Vietnam

Tsingy de Bemaraha National Park in Madagascar

The Li River in China

Additionally, the world's longest (Mammoth) and deepest (~~Veryovkina~~ Krubera is once again the world's deepest cave, thank you to SockOlm for pointing that out) cave systems are both found in limestone formations

Mammoth Cave in the United States

Veryovkina Cave in Georgia/Abkhazia/Russia (disputed territory)

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hi, does anyone wanna make the mega in the upcoming weeks? if so, reply to this post and i'll add you to the list!

the list as it stands:

        Eco* (4/21 - 4/27)
    EstraDoll* (4/28 - 5/4)
    SadArtemis* (5/5 - 5/11)
    yewler* (5/12 - 5/18)
    AshenWolf* (5/19 - 5/25)
    oscardejarjayes* (5/26 - 6/1)
    AshenWolf* (6/2 - 6/8)
    PeeNutButtHer (6/9 - 6/15)
    GayTuckerCarlson (6/16 - 6/22)

* after name denotes someone who has posted before and will be skipped by first-time posters

cw: suicide

I think it's so funny when people here say their voices pass on the phone.
Lmao you losers talk on the phone?? Okay, granny
- I think it's so funny when people here say their voices pass on the phone.
  please, it makes me so very happy when it happens, but i have to use the phone for my job
- I gotta call the surgeon at 3 am because he forgot to order any PRN pain control harder than Tylenol for his ORIF femur fracture and never responded to epic chat because he's a SpEcIaL BoY who gets to ignore all pages except for a phone call
- Phonecalls get shit done, its just practice, but its hard to get hold of a younger person most of the time

1 year anniversary of being trans on hexbear.net

edit: come to think of it, i was posting on the trans mega for a couple weeks before making this account. i've been trans on hexbear for a little longer than this

Cried myself to sleep last night, woke up, took meds, ate breakfast, cried myself to sleep on the couch.
Doing pretty great here

How about trans day of invisibility, where no one can see me and I can commit all the crime I want to

i don't want to have to spend my life just fighting to exist but I guess I just don't have that option

the horrors persist but so do i

Cis people really don't get it do they

fuck im old

they should rename greece to south macedonia and macedonia to north greece
that way no one's happy
- Also we should rename the bird to "türkiye."
  
  In French, its Dinde (really really close to d'Inde, it would mean from India). In India it's called a Tarki or Piru (Turkey or Peru). In Turkey they call it Hindi (India).
  Everyone thinks this fuckin bird comes from somewhere else

Wow, it's been a while. Hi traa!
- Have you been relaxing while away? You seem less bitchy
  
  I'm sure I haven't lost my bitchiness xp
  
  A little relaxing, a little
  at the state of my country around me 🙃

I miss when the trans mega was booming

I love trans people, I love people who take their self-expression into their own hands and do what makes them happy.

Being off testosterone is so bad for my mental state yet I can’t afford it. Shit fucking sucks and I hate my life

I'm actually really worried about the future here in the US, I've got no money/skills so I can't up and move but I really don't want to end up on an RFK ""wellness""farm or in an El Salvadorian prison. It's not looking to good out here for an autistic trans woman

Am I freaking myself out over nothing? Should I be this worried? What can I even do?

My boobs are finally affecting how my tops drape

holy fuck i'm two weeks sober now?
it's been years since I've been able to claim that
- Only 14 more days until I can say the same
- yo proud of you that rocks
- Hell yeah, you're doing great.
  
  thinking aboyt hat kid ignites a feminist rage within me, a game about a nameless woman, who doesnt speak, made for and by men, rahhhh
  fun gameplay but ill never finish it
- Congrats
  that's a big deal and I'm proud of you for it :)
- congratssss!!!!
- Congratulations! That's amazing

okay random as fuck but I saw a tweet which made me think about those MySpace bulletin surveys you used to do back in the day and, being the hoarder that I am, I actually found some that I had saved as text files
and holy shit, one of the first answers slapped me in the fucking face. I won't quote it verbatim on the off-chance that someone has a pre-wipe MySpace database, but it basically reads

LORD SOMEONE GO TELL THIS CHILD THAT TRANS PEOPLE EXIST
that aside, I honestly had no idea I that kind of explicit eggy sentiment that early on. Sure, it's very flippant, but like--that's a weird thing for a cis guy to say, right? Wish I'd kept a diary, but I guess MySpace surveys will have to do
- fuck I definitely have some super eggy shit lost to the sands of time from Myspace and old forums I was on as a kid

Holy shit, so I just randomly ran into a friend from more than a decade ago and caught up a bit and it was really sweet and crazy unlikely and I was a whole ass different person when we were last friends and he was super sweet and positive about it and I have a lot of feelings about it and am kinda overwhelmed

Shaved both my face and body with zero cuts for the first time

Got a haircut today and omg I love it I love my new bangs I love the deliberate messiness I love the way it frames my face I love the volume that I didn't think my hair could even do I love how it's short but still distinctly femme I love how it looks with my overall fashion I love it I love it I love it, been several hours and I'm still glowing

me after dropping one (1) progesterone pill on the ground and losing it

down with the cis
- Many people are saying this; few are doing it
  
  need to start a gender terrorist cell that goes around shooting people up with anti-cis-tamines and beheading transphobes uwu
- down with cis
  
  down with cis

Mirthlessly laughing because I realised tonight I can't change the gender markers on my birth certificate even though my state in Australia would let me because I was born in a foreign country I don't even have citizenship to, my parents were just working there.
Best I can do is like an update of details certificate.

Oh my god fucking liberals and fucking cis people. I don't have the energy to post details but good lord I'm so frustrated rn

Folx, I think I'm starting to develop a woman's intuition. For the last few days I've been worried that my homebrew estriadol order got cancelled, or fell through the cracks, or I got scammed for some bazingacoins, since I paid for it about a week ago and still haven't gotten a shipment tracking link. I even sent a support ticket asking them what the h*ck is going on. But on the way home, for no reason at all I thought "maybe I'll check the mailbox before going in" (not something I typically do), and lo and behold, it had arrived
- I personally like the term, "pirate hormones."
  Yar - har - fiddle-dee-dee! Do what you want cause a pirate is free!

i can get on the waiting list for bottom surgery soon. i could have a pussy in (in the grand scheme of things) not too distant future holy fuck i'm getting chills just thinking about it
EDIT: okay thanks for the "congrats" everyone but i think i should clarify that i haven't even done like, anything at all to prep for this or research anything, this is just me realizing "i could probably start making those phone calls at this point in my transition". didn't mean to state that like, anything really happened to me beyond hitting the 1 year HRT mark, almost

Oh my god I need to feel more fem/like a woman
Hopefully I can do my nails soon I guess. And I'll get access to hrt soon- still worried about actually starting though. So, so worried. Going to go cry myself to sleep. Goodnight mega.

Thinking of becoming a piano girly and getting really into classical music because I have no concrete sense of identity.

My phone autocomplete suggests “gurls” instead of “girls”
- gru uploaded his consciousness to your phone. when the maps app takes you to the nearest rocket launch site, ignore it

::: spoiler paranoia, dysphoria, transphobia, ableism, and genocide I'm extremely fucking scared right now. i had a nap earlier and there was a dream where my mom went into my room and found out (again) that I'm trans and was scolding me or whatever and i kept waking up and going back to sleep and thinking it was real, I went to sleep before that earlier thinking about what's happening in the USA and stuff and being horrified of the thought of a genocide happening. I'm so tired of my family too, all their transphobia is so tiring, and school too. I have to say nothing every time I'm called by my deadname instead of Sally and not say anything when people call me "sir" or "mr" or "young man" because if I do I'm in danger because of how fucking stupid Texas is. Brother back in March tried to literally gaslight me into thinking I'm not trans, saying "it's probably just an identity crisis" when I've identified as trans for 5 years now, he's the type that thinks you're "vulnerable" and can't decide for yourself if you're neurodivergent or something I think. I just want it to be 2027 or 2028 already so i can escape and be myself, why do I have to go through so much pain just to some day get to a point where I can hopefully be myself?
edit: i accidentally posted this suddenly and it scared tf out of me when i wasn't ready hopefully this is ok to post here though idk I'm an extremely paranoid person about everything

That’s a weird looking fruit.
- Maybe it's a stonefruit.

theres like a 5 minute window where the tea is not too hot and not too cold, and i always miss it
- Add more tea, then don't drink it in time again, repeat

apologies to all the gay and bi guys i accidentally led on back in my EDM club days
i know things got crosswired because i was high and in femmebrain mode and twunky and probably seemed flirty and basically wasted your entire night
except for that CATO libertarian guy. i'm glad i wasted your night
- Apologizing to men.
  Critical mistake.
  
  i apologize for my apology (i am allowed to apologize to you)

I've been thinking about RuPaul's Drag race recently and basically 2 points that might be connected or coincidence.
Firstly you never fucking hear Cishets talking about it anymore. Like a few years back it was a thing they would always bring up when someone was gay or trans (unfortunately). Despite it being on it's 17th season and having like 20 something international spin-offs. Like that's not necessarily a bad thing, except...
Secondly the show has done a real 180 on how shitty and transphobic it was. RuPaul still sucks for fracking and other reasons (but he's only on like 3 of the shows, and no one watches to see him phone it in each week), but he's basically recanted most of the transphobic shit he said. Each season has multiple trans women or non binary performers, even one trans man has competed. The top finalists of later seasons are frequently trans, several trans women/femmes have won the show (mainline and spin-offs).
The most recent show had enormous representation in Lexi Love who was/is a complete train wreck (but still a top 4 finalist). Drag Race Canada this most recent season had Jaylene Tyme a two-Spirit First Nations and Métis Indigenous trans woman, who was a sixties scoop survivor (Canadian stolen generation equivalent).
It's lib/idealist AF but this quote from Vulture is still pretty true.
But something else that is true is that there is no other program on TV, period, on which a convicted felon can come and be celebrated for his love of his gay, drag-queen son. I also can’t remember the last time I saw a transphobic mother work so hard to overcome her biases and reconnect with the daughter she threw out of the house. Even Sam Star’s mother, a deeply southern woman who has a fearsome dedication to her child, is a revolutionary figure right now. The world is terrible, corporations around the country are dropping queer people left and right, but Drag Race still exists. It’s nice.
And guess circling back around to my first point, the show got better about trans people, and then it sort of dropped off the public's radar.

this is my second week taking injections instead of drops. much preferable. never going back.

Shaved and moisturised my legs after like a month of not doing it

Imagine the fucking
you have to be suffering from to be a trans monarchist from Russia who posts pro-fascist and pro-White Army propaganda.

I both need a little pause from everything but am also hopelessly behind (no prizes for guessing why)

Update on coming out to my friend. I haven't seen much of her in a few years but still counts. She's proud of me, glad I told her, and I got to tell someone else my name. (which she loves for me and I am riding that wave, holy hell I forgot how much I like having my name complimented). She's actually got a trans member of her extended family, which I didn't know about. So yea, very nice to get to talk with her about it a bit.
I still (kind of, complicated obviously) come out to my main irl friend. Don't know when that will happen though.