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I got a clinic referral yesterday! Waiting on a confirmation letter/email but the gp visit went so much better than I expected. I was automatically offered the clinic with the shortest waiting times and the doctor made sure to make a note of my preferred name and pronouns on my file. I was in and out in 10 minutes and had to contain a big dumb smile as I was leaving