I turn my back while some people who seemingly had the right idea got into positions of power, and I put my hand up to fill a role after someone bailed mid term. It turns out the so-called-anarchists have been encouraging general membership to write articles, cool, cute idea. But I look at them, and they're poorly researched, have no analysis, meandering, nothingey, and just wrong, filled with racist assumptions. Is anarchy just when you can't tell people NO? the article this person wanted published when I came back was essentially titled "we need to make people love the country again", and it's fascist as fuck. omg (I know these people aren't actually anarchists, they're just young libs trying their best, maybe I shouldn't have dipped)

Don't even get me started on people bailing 1 month before the end of their term and suggesting we should just fold the org. I get your burnt out but OH MY FUCKING GOD. please excuse me while I scream FUCK as loudly as I can in my home.

One of the most frustrating things is that the bar for entry is so low that a bunch of unsafe "comrades" who are anti-communists, who I have kept out of other spaces, are now firmly embedded, and they complain that kicking people out is going to isolate them from community, and they'll make vague threats of self-harm, yeah cool, that's not abusive, this is fine.

Honestly everytime I stop smoking feels like the worst possible time to be doing it. I know this is all petty and silly, but wow I am just having a bad mental health week/month/year/life