neurotically doing something practically pointless, repetitive, menial and unfulfilling because my brain clicks to it like a puzzle piece

i am scrollin

i am constantly subjecting myself to my own little sisyphean punishments for no reason

I feel that. I often feel like the only reason I like the jobs that I do is because they're repetitive and somewhat unimportant. I spend my time wasted on shit that makes me money now, and I talk about how horrible it is for me at group everyday