Same, I'm getting there. I've been using the steam room at my gym, since the steam forces me to regulate my breathing. It's a crutch but it has worked wonders for my mind.
Could you please provide any links or book recommendations for an absolute beginner? I’ve tried to approach it in different ways (apps mostly), but never actually manage to make it work and would love to learn what worked for you. Thanks!!
Being Peace by Thich Naht Hahn. That man is a master of meditation and his books changed my life. There really isn't anything to it and if you are trying then you are trying too hard. It's not about what you think when you meditate. It's about letting what you think flow through you
Keep in mind though that your brain works like a muscle in meditation and, like exercise, it's hard at first. But the more you do it the better you get.
One day all of a sudden you come across a situation where in the past you wouldn't have been able to control your emotions, but something like a bell rings and brings you back to that calm Meditative State where you are in control.
It's about finding peace with yourself and the world around you.